VII: 4 AM

1. It's 4am in the morning. Late night thought and you stumble upon a tragedy of your life. Nobody knows. I don't know. You don't know. How things change so quickly. How the coffee no longer tastes the same. How the cloud does not show it's silver linings anymore. How the breeze in November is actually heating you up. How the friend you once loved turned to be a foe you hate the most. How you yourself no longer sleep at 10pm but 4am.

2. Nobody knows. But everything starts somewhere. Because of triggers. Things that you had been holding for a long time finally blew up. You crumbled a bit, or maybe a lot, but you know things are no longer the same.

3. That's where you started to blame yourself. You didn't blame people around you no matter how big their role was in shaping you. Now when you look forward, all you see is nothing. All these thoughts and visions happen at 4am. In the sleepless void you are suffering from.