V: Why You Keep Staring At The Road Not Taken.

"When you were here before

Couldn't look you in the eye."

1. Sometimes, we tend to overlook all the little details in our life. We pass the time without even knowing that there are lots of things happen in seconds. We miss all the hints and points given by people to us. They communicate to us indirectly longing for our reply but until today, we have not yet replied to them because we did not see them at first place.

"You're just like an angel, 

Your skin makes me cry, 

You float like a feather, 

In a beautiful world."

2. These people would have warned us the tragedies that would lie ahead. These people would have told us that this beautiful world is in such way due to their existence. These people would have said to us that we belong to them and up until now, for a slight mistake, we focus on other things. On things that destroy us eventually. Without even knowing that on the other side of the picture, some people were planning to save us.

"I wish I was special,

You are so very special."

3. And when we are so far away from them, we start to realise that things would be so much different if we cared about them earlier. Things would be better for us if we noticed them while we looked at something else. But we ignored them, that's the truth. Now, we try to crawl back to them, hoping that things could be repeated even for once. 

"I don't care if it hurts, 

I want to have control."

4. We are now stuck in the middle of the road. We don't even have the power to turn back. So we accept our defeat. Defeated by our own fate. All we care is things to get better once again. But we are too late. If things hurt us, we insist. Because we already give up.

"I want a perfect body, 

I want a perfect soul, 

I want you to notice, 

When I'm not around."

5. And how ironic, when it turns out that it was not them who wanted to be noticed. After all this time, we are the ones who ask for attention. And when they're gone, we know we're gone too. Nobody cares about us anymore. Nobody cares about anyone. We should have asked for a perfect soul to take care of us. But we were in denial. We ignored them. 

"But I'm a creep, 

I'm a weirdo, 

What the hell am I doing here? 

I don't belong here."

6. And that is the moment, when we know, deep down inside, we are so sad. We are so unhappy. Cloaked by regret and drowned with shame. So sad, the life of us. All led to this. Just because one choice that you made last time when we stumbled upon two diverged roads.

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